Linzy, sweetie, of course you're not hopelessly lazy! Don't "should" all over yourself! However, young lady, I am going to scold you about not taking your SSRI's regularly. They MUST be taken as prescribed or 1) they won't help and 2) you'll have all sorts of weird side effects like low blood pressure and feeling woozy and stuff. PLEASE promise me you'll take them exactly on schedule every single day. They're not something to f%%% around with.
Okay, done scolding! Hope you feel better and here's a {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}. Remember, we are human beings not human doings! You were just being!! Good for you.