Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Re: After two good days.....today isn't so great.....sorry, need some shoulders to lean on....

I'm sorry you've had such a rough time

I feel for you. I don't think I've ever been depressed (well maybe a long time ago, but it went away w/o meds, so maybe it wasn't) and I don't think I have anxiety. But it sounds not fun. I do know about that weird trainwreck-like feeling, though...I don't know how to describe it. I think that hiding that you're sick from your family is not such a good idea - I tried that for a while and it just made things more confusing and worse. Maybe tell them how you're feeling. I think that they'll worry, but not as much as if they can sense something is wrong and you're not telling them - THAT would add more stress to the situation (I've had experience with this, sadly

). Maybe you should see your doctor about your anxiety and maybe you are depressed again (I don't want you to get mad at me for saying this b/c I don't know you very well...I'm just trying to give all sorts of suggestions and you may not be depressed at all). You probably don't want to have to go on an anti-anxiety/depression drug again b/c you successfully were off of one for a while....but on the other hand, you might want to catch things before they get out of hand like a runaway train. I mean, it's better to be on a medicine and not feel so awful inside (even if you have a couple good days...and I'm glad you have

) most days. At least that's what I think. I don't know. Because if you had anxiety and stuff before and the med. helped that it's probably some chemical/biological thing that causes this in you, so a medicine would probably help...and then the hypno tapes would probably be more succesful. Or you could talk to a counselor/therapist or something (ok, don't hate me again for saying this, but I've gone to one before

) because they are just there to let you spill and they help calm you down and stuff. But you might need the meds too. Or just a hot bath and some tea? About tomorrow, I'm sorry you're worried. I know it's WAY easier said than done but think about what's the worst that can happen? The customer laughs at you or doesn't want to hire you? Well, in that case, it's probably better off you don't do business with them b/c they'd be a pain in the rear end! And if they were rude, would you have to see them again? Most probably not! And you'd have to worry about dealing with one less ignorant person! Just remember not to let the ignorance of others let you ignore the beauty of life..corny, but I created that quote one time when I was frustrated w/insensitive people. Well, I hope I'm not being insensitive and if you need to talk about anything else, just feel free

I hope you feel better!!!
P.S. If it makes you feel any better, I was doing much better and then backtracked and am now "breaking the cycle" again. You can pretend we're working together to feeling better!

Feel better!!!!

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