Oh Sweetie, hang in there. We must be on the same wave leagnth though! The last 2 days were ok for me and I'm having a really bad one today also! I do see my shrink tonight and hoping that will pick me up again. Is there a reason you don't want to go back on zoloft?? I can't, because I'm trying to get pregnant, otherwise I would be on something to help. If you don't want to do one of the SSRI drugs (like zoloft) maybe ask your dr about a script for Xanax. They are a mild traquilizer and when I get "worked up" I take one and it helps me relax and go on. If I'm REALLY worked up sometimes I will have to take them for a couple days. They can be addictive so you do have to be a little cautious, just take them when you need them.
I find if I stay "worked up" for very long at a time, I either go into a panick attack or a SEVERE IBS attack. The Xanax just helps me head that off. Once I get pregnant, I don't think I will be able to take them but for now they really are helping. I'm averaging about 2-3 a week, you can take them up to 3 times a day on the weakest streagnth like I'm on.
Try to hang on, we all care about you. Maybe its time you be honest about your feelings with your Hubby or someone in your family. Its not a good idea to keep "hiding" it from them. I'm sure if they knew what was going on they would be more than happy to help in anyway they can. You can't be so worried about worrying them, thats what families are for!
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....