Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Pregnant and need to vent...

Hello there the few of you who are "oldies" here and remember me. Finally after all my health issues over the past few years we felt the time was right to get pregnant. And pregnant we got straight away and I am thankful for that. I am not so thankful however that the nausea hit me straight away. I am only in the very beginning of week 5 and today I have felt sick all day apart from 4-6 hours in the middle of the day. I have thrown up once in the am and several times in a row in the late afternoon. In the am the nausea went away after I threw up but not in the afternoon.

As you may remember I have anxiety issues from all the stuff I've been through. After I had the colostomy surgery last fall and got a chronic gastritis and felt sick a lot the anxiety got worse and in the spring and late summer I've had panic attacks. The attacks aren't the worst part though. They settle down quickly. It's the increased level of tension and nervousness that lingers afterwards that's the worst part. First I was on a drug called Atarax but it's not ok during pregnancy and when getting off it gave me panic attacks I switched to Lergigan (prometazine) which is also used for morning sickness. And yet I threw up.

I really hope this is just temporary. I want to be happy now that I am pregnant and not worry and feel sick.

Another thing that I'm sad about is that my choir will be on national tv. We're supposed to record 4 tv services on Oct 17-18. Now I don't know if I'll be able to participate. I've read that the pregnancy hormones will hit you more in week 7-8 or so. I sure hope they don't when I've felt this sick today as early as maybe day 29 or something like that.

Please those of you who are religious, pray for me! And for those of you who aren't just keep your fingers crossed this will get better fast so I can enjoy the pregnancy.

I don't want to sound like I'm not grateful - I know so many people struggle to get pregnant and for us it worked on the first try (of course it's still early and you shouldn't count your chickens, but I don't want to go through this for nothing) - but it's hard to be really HAPPY when you feel miserably sick. I will start cognitive behavioral therapy a week from now and I hope I'll feel a bit better then so I can go see the therapist and go to pregnancy controls and things I like doing without being afraid. We don't have a car so I'll have to take the bus or a cab. Pushing very hard to try to see a silver lining I guess I can say that I will be forced to do some serious work on my nausea phobia! :P

Thanks for your support.

Hugs to all of you from me!

P S In case you're curious I can tell you that my colostomy works perfectly and since the stubborn post operative nausea cleared I've been able to eat pretty much everything apart from spicy hot food and really sour things - like larger amounts of balsamic vinegar et.c. So for me (remember I had (yes I don't consider myself to really suffer from IBS anymore although my upper GI tract is sensitive) IBS-D and nerve damages in the pelvic floor so I couldn't hold the BM back) the colostomy was really the right thing to do. I've been able to enjoy life so much, joined a choir for example. And I attended a yoga class before I got pregnant - we'll see if I'll feel well enough to go to any more classes.

Edited by Ulrika (10/03/09 12:29 PM)

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