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OMG!!!I cannot count the times I've binged.I just LOVE food-food I can't have.I spent years in therapy for eating disorders-I don't see myself as fat-I struggle to stay at110lbs.I see myself as destructive.It only gets worse with self-denial.That's what we have to do-and it sucks!I am so sick of applesauce and crackers and carrots-I could just croak.Yesterday I ate PIZZA! And now I will pay for that for days.But today for breaky,I looked at the same stinky ricecakes-Bla.
I do not work anymore-it got too bad;But when I did,This one little bag-just like Kappy's at the bank-could do no wrong in the boss's eyes-GAG!
I would picture my fingers around her throat,by the end of the shift-she got her way-I am in the bathroomBMing and crying my head off.

Really though,you won't help yourself letting her win,and it is not worth it.After all,we are the ones that have to deal with the pain-not them.My co-workers,at the time could nothave cared less that I was sick-they did not even believe me then I mentally afflicted them.That's when you say in your head-"someday...You WILL know what it's like to be me!"
Sorry y'all I had to really vent on my own.

I'm all better now.Everyone stay real;We have each other.

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