Just wanted to jump in here and give my support. I went through some rough times as well before having my children. I have lost 3 babies and it is tough. My dear SIL is dealing with infertility and is now coping with a m/c after doing an embryo adoption. I hurt so much for her. You all have every right to choose what to attend and what not to attend. It is not "bad" of you. I hope you find some peace and sending good baby vibes your way.