I am very rarely on the boards these day but something made me check in today and I saw your message.
I am so sorry for everything that you have had to deal with. I have thought for quite some time that you are the strongest person I know. You have had to deal with so many things in the last few years.
The most important thing right now is for you to take care of yourself. It is very difficult to need someones suport and not get it especially at a time when you need it the most.
If you want to work things out with Will I hope that happens. If you discover that you would rather be without him you know you have all of our support.
I just want you to be happy and to feel good again. I'm sure everyone on here feels the same way. You are such a special person and you deserve to be pain free and to be happy.