Re: I'M TIRED.....OF EVERYTHING....
10/18/07 11:41 AM
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caputsky
Reged: 03/24/07
Posts: 256
Loc: Baltimore, MD
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I'M TIRED OF MY STOMACH TRYING TO CONTROL MY LIFE. I'M SICK OF BEING SICK, AND SICK OF WATCHING EVERYONE ELSE AROUND ME LIVING THE LIFE THEY WANT AND ME NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THAT. I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH MY FRIENDS AT A BAR, HAVE A DRINK, AND NOT WORRY ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCES FOR MY IBS. I WANT TO NOT HAVE SUCH BAD GAS THAT I CAN'T EVEN GET UP THE COURAGE TO DATE SOMEONE. I FEEL AS IF I WILL NEVER GET MARRIED, HAVE CHILDREN, AND THE FAMILY I WANT BECAUSE OF MY IBS. I AM TIRED OF THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO HAVE ACTUALLY HAD THIS DISORDER TELLING ME THAT IT WILL "GO AWAY"...BECAUSE I DON'T BELIEVE THEM. I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD, AND EAT EXOTIC AND UNIQUE FOOD FROM DIFFERENT PLACES WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT WHERE THE NEAREST BATHROOM IS. I AM TIRED OF EATING THE SAME FOOD BECAUSE I AM AFRAID OF TRYING SOMETHING NEW. I WANT TO PLAY SPORTS AND RUN LIKE I USED TO WITHOUT MY STOMACH BEING A FACTOR -- IF I WANT TO RUN 13 DARN MILES THEN I WILL DO IT AND SAY "SCREW YOU, STOMACH!" I DON'T WANT TO BE NORMAL...I JUST WANT TO LIVE THE CAREFREE, HAPPY, FULFILLED LIFE I HAD BEFORE IBS.
Thank you so much, I have needed to vent for a while now.
Julie
IBS-D, GERD, lactose intolerant
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"We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it."
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