I know how you feel. I am such a people pleaser and have realized that it does more harm to me when I try to make everyone happy instead of focusing on myself when I need to. I am working on saying "no" when I really feel crummy. And if that means I have to stay indoors all day in front of the telly, then so be it.
When I have to explain to my family, friends, my fiance why I need to take some time, stay home, etc it makes me depressed. I start to fixate on how my quality of life is crappy because of this disease, how I'm not free to just go wherever I want whenever I please without worrying about bathroom access, what I ate prior to leaving, what symptoms am I feeling if anything, do I have my pills, etc. I'm working on getting out of that negative thought process, but man, it's tough! I totally need therapy but can't afford it right now
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