A little while ago I wrote about my eye problems.To those of you who haven't read it,for the past year and 3 months I have been suffering with eye problems.I see red spots out of my side vision,I have lots of after image,tons of floaters,and almost everything I look at looks like the snowy stuff on the tv when the channel goes out.Anyway none of the many doctors I have seen for this have any idea what is wrong with me.They have never heard of this.The last doc I seen for this said I may have a vitamin defficiency in my eyes.He also wanted my to have a MRI to figure this out.So the reason I am writing is because I can't take this anymore.I read on here that a lot of people have anxiety about their IBS,mine has gone way beyond that.I don't care about my IBS anymore because it is well under control.I have such bad anxiety that I can't barely leave my house.When I was about 14 I had a seizure and right as I started the seizure everything started to get that snowy look that the tv gets when the channel goes out.Thankfully I haven't had one since and I am now 23.But I worry that I will have another because that is what I see every second of every day.I am just barely hanging on.Today is not a great day for me because I am so fearfull of what is wrong with me,I fear it is my brain.The MRI is not even scheduled yet.It won't be until about 4 more months.Because of my eye problem I cannot drive and I can't go outside and enjoy time with my son.I have become a only a fragment of my former self.I used to love life, I was the life of the party,now I fear life.MY dream is to be able to get in the car and drive to the store all by myself,sounds simple but I am basically a prisoner.I would love to begin university next fall,that's my ultimate goal.Anyway I was feeling realy upset today and wanted to get it out.Tomorrow I go to my family doc to get some blood results and I am going to beg him to hurry up the MRI.I don't know what else to do,I am an emotional wreck because of this.I feel like crying right now.I just want to be normal and healthy.It's so amazing how one minute things seem normal and the next you are completly blind sided and your world is turned upside down.Sorry for ranting on but I just had to get it out.Thanks for listening.
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