trust me, I can understand.. I still think about the babies I lost though it was years ago and we made the decision to not try again several years back... it never goes away completely, but it does become less of an issue as the years pass.. a friend who lost a baby 25 years ago told me that this was the first year she didn't mourn him on the day he died as the foremost thought on that day... if her husband hadn't pointed out the date she would have passed it like another day.. so there is hope, though it does take a long time...
And for now- focus on getting better and healthy and then it will be time to re-evaluate and make decisions from another perspective.. think about it this way- would you be able to care for an infant/toddler (or 2!) at this point with everything else going on? in some ways its better because you can heal and learn how to adapt better BEFORE bringing a child into your life..
Amie
-------------------- Dietetics Student (anticipating RD exam in Aug 2010)
IBS - A
Dairy Allergic
Fructose and MSG intollerant