Reged: 04/06/06
Posts: 1299
Loc: A small city, Northwestern Ontario, Canada
You've had to make some truly tough decisions regarding your health, and I'm very sorry you have had to at 36. The actuality of not being able to support a pregnancy is very disheartening. I know, I can't have natural babies either. It is almost like you aren't a real woman. I deeply feel for you, for the empty feeling you must have inside. Even though we had decided not to have children before I found out I can't, I still feel like I'm a let-down. My mom wants more than 1 grandson to spoil. My grandma and papa long for more great-grandkids too. I know what it's like when everyone asks you when you plan to have kids. I get it all the time, especially now that we're legally married. I haven't anything to console you, but I know how you feel.
I hope that if the dr. suggests the methotrexate, that it is the magic wand you so desperately need. And I hope a miracle happens and you have no side affects, only healing.
On adoption: I often think of it myself. Everyday probably. I have two friends who have adopted from overseas - China and Russia. Their children are wonderful, loving, and despite having poor infancies healthwise, are thriving in their adolescence now. I would do it, if Thomas wanted a child. I'm actually, self-admittedly, selfish. As much as I want a child, I don't want a child. But I would do it. I would adopt a child - after all, all a child wants is to be loved.
I wish I knew the right thing to say to comfort you in all of this. As always, I wish you a good, pain free day, one in which you can button your shirt, tie your laces and brush your own hair.
Cassandra
-------------------- Cassandra
Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like you've never loved before.
IBS A 20+ years, Chronic Migraines, Chiari Malformation (decompressed June 22, 2010), Brachial Neuritis, and ??? the list just keeps growing, but I'm still shiny side up!
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