Michele, I'm so sorry you're having to go through all this, but maybe this is the answer you've been trying to find. I don't know anything about methotrexate but I truly hope it works for you, you need some relief! And I admire you're openness to adopting older children or children who have "issues" of they're own. I've always wanted to adopt anyway, whether or not I eventually have my own children. There are so many older kids who need a good home & someone to love them. You'd be a wonderful mom, any child would be blessed to have you. As with everyone on the board who's going through difficult times, my heart & thoughts are with you!
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