Reged: 08/06/04
Posts: 4381
Loc: Within stray mortar fire of DC
If you're mental I'm mental too. I'd be glad to visit you in the psych ward. Maybe we can get a double room.
I'm having a hard time starting and stopping meds. I fired one of my doctors a couple of weeks ago and with that went cold turkey off of no fewer than 3 meds. The physical pain from the meds and my symptoms coming back all at once was so bad, I quit my 9-5 job. I know where you are right now, and it's not a nice place to be.
I think you should take some time off from your job and check yourself into the hospital until they can figure out what's wrong (or you feel better enough to check yourself out). I did this when I was 19 and spent some time in the hospital until I was strong enough to be on my own. This was before I had my IBS diagnosis-- I was severly underweight, having seizures and my hair was coming out big time. Even so, I had to MAKE them check me in. I know it can be done.
At least with the constant care I was #1 taken seriously and #2 had some peace of mind that a doctor was reviewing my case daily. As soon as doctors started working on me full time, I had peace of mind. There's nothing so empty as feeling as you're not being taken seriously. I know you know what I mean.
That being said, I know you are probably not in a position to leave work. But it might be an investment in the Rest of Your Life. Please weigh the consequences (misery, depression, feelings of worthlessness). I wouldn't wish this feeling on my worst enemy. {{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}
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You are sick-- why can't they see that?
I know where you are right now, and it's not a nice place to be. 
