Well, the weekend was awful. All I did was move from bed to couch and back again. I lost 4 pounds in three days. I can't eat, even plain rice feels like razor blades and I'm hardly able to drink.
I've been complaining to the doctors about this pain I've been having up high, like just under my boobs and a tad to the right. They keep saying its reflux and not to worry. Well, its to the critical mass state and hurts like hell. I also have terrible, sharp pains real low and to the right, like just above my pubic hair line. My tummy looks about 6 months pregnant. I'm weak, dizzy, nauseous and in pain.
I saw the crohns guy this am and what a waste of time. He poked and prodded until I was crying and said he doesn't think its a perforation or anything serious. He set up an appt for next Wednesday for a consult on an upper endoscopy. I told him if they can't find anything definite wrong with me than its got to be in my head and to please admitt me to the psych ward because I can't take anymore and even though I was sobbing when I said it, I don't think he took me serious. I WAS serious.
I am sitting at my desk, hunch over in pain, trying not to have a complete meltdown in public. I have an appt to see my internist at 1pm, than I have to come back to work for the rest of the afternoon. I hope she has some better answers.
I swear, I'm the sickest healthy person in the world. I've been to more specialist than I can count and have some vague diagnoses but no one can tell me whats wrong. Can depression cause this amount of PHYSICAL pain?
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....
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Having a bit of a meltdown. Am I mental???
