Yes, I have been seeing a shrink now for over 2 years. She is wonderful and has helped me deal with old demons from the past. She has taught me some coping skills and is very reassuring.
What I've been finding lately though is that I'm very UP and very DOWN. It always seems to work out that when I see her, I'm UP and just can't convey how DOWN I get. The shrink can't tell me whats wrong with me medically and has never implied that all my "sickness" is "mental" or anything but I'm just so tired of being bounced from one doctor to another and no one can tell me whats wrong. But they still want me to take all these really nasty, toxic drugs-I just don't get it.
I threatened to stop ALL my medications a couple of weeks ago to see how bad things got, then maybe they could figure it out but I had three doctors, the rheumy, the crohn's specialist and my internist, all tell me that was a very bad idea.
My marriage is suffering, my friends don't get it and I feel like my life revolves around doctors who can't even tell me whats wrong. Its all I can do to make it to work everyday and now my boss is talking about combining our office with another office which is very busy and I have no idea how I would be able to handle that kind of work load.
I don't know if I feel so bad today because I actually had two days that I felt ok, felt what it was like to be more or less normal, or just what.
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....
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