Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Aww, man. He broke it off with me. What a bummer.

We talked tonight. he came up with his definitive answer for me, and it was a no. I'm not as upset as I thought I'd be...it turns out that I know I'm not ready, he knows I'm not ready, and it was a total physical attraction that would have been toxic for us. I want us to stay friends,as does he because I think we'd make good friends....I think partly because he was on my level of quality human for the first time ever, that's what drew me to him so much. He is my equal, and I realize now that I've dated people who did not have as much to offer the world as I do.

And being in limbo and not knowing where I stand with someone is the most torturous thing I can imagine. Don't ask me why but it's agony for me. i'm far more at peace with his decision now because we can go on with our lives. you know, rather than living in suspended animation emotionally.

And if friends leads us to someday becoming more than that, then it's a great basis by which to move forth. If friends we remain, I'm happy with that. And if friends totally doesn't work out for us, that's okay too.

I see now that becoming friends with someone and getting to know their spirit is far more appealing to me than it ever was before.

So closes the saga. Tune in next time for a new story...the new or Improved Cookie. Time to focus on me, Kayleigh, school and getting mi $hit together, eh?

Ah but he was a beautiful distraction.

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Keep on keepin' on...

Edited by Coookie (08/14/06 11:12 AM)

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