I don`t know what to do because nothing is helping me sort my ibs out. I went through a really good patch - my diet and exercise is all the same but now I`m back to how I was two years ago. The dr.`s have confirmed its not ceoliacs disease and there is nothing else they can do but dismiss me and let me cope with it. The thing is I CAN`T cope with it. For some reason I always seem to be having a good day when I see the doctors so they see me as handling it but then there are weeks like this when I just can`t cope.
I know you all have days like this so I am sorry for moaning I`m just at a loss as to what to do. I think my friends and family are sick of me moaning and just see it as part of me now but it really isn`t and I just want to go back to the girl I was.
I have emailed Mike Mahoney (audio 100 hypnosis cds) as he isn`t that far away from me and I was hoping he would see me but the emails just keep coming back as undelivered.
I`ve got a wedding to go to on Saturday that my boyfriends mum is turning into a MAJOR deal.Its her niece though and her son (not my boyf) is getting married next year so what is she going to be like then. I told her I didn`t feel well this morning and she replied with "well you better take something you can`t be ill at the wedding". I know I can`t be bloody ill at the wedding doesn`t she understand that the pressure of that and her is making me feel 100 times worse. She bought me a really expensive outfit for the day so I really can`t miss it.
Whats more I am starting a new job a week today and I`m really worried because when they asked me if I have any health problems they should be aware of I said no.
Plus I have a weeks work experience starting on the 7th aug which means I`m doing 9 days straight (including my new job) and I still have 13.5 books to read for when I go back to uni in september. i just can`t cope. I`ve got enough to cope with without having to stress about my ibs that the doctors say I just have to deal with.
I keep crying and making myself worse. My diets been good - better than when I was having an ok time with the ibs and I can`t see what I am doing wrong. right now I just give up. I keep telling myself I hate myself which really isn`t helping anything.
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