Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | OKay ladies and gents...my update, here it is.....

Well, I've been wrestling with whether or not to say anything, but here gos...I'll put it out there, and if you accept it, you do, and if not, then at least I'm not withholding.

I've made a promise to myself to be more blunt and open about things, and to be more true to myself.

I met him. A few times.

He is more wonderful in person than he was for the seven hours we spent on the phone, and the 24 5 page e-mails we wrote, and the 40 text messages we sent.

He is sweet, kind, emotionally open, outgoing, handsome, honest about everything, giving, and sensitive.

I've been to his place, which he shares witha friend. I've very briefly met his daughter. I've gone for walks, gone to movies, gone to dinner, had him visit over here, WITHOUT KAYLEIGH by the way...

I know trevor and I ahve only been split a while, but Trevor knows all about it and is happy for me...
In fact, he's encouraging it. It's changed our relationship to friendly again, which is so nice. I asked Trevor what he'd feel if I went on a date, sort of giving him a last "in" if he wanted (which I doubted) and he said he just wanted my happiness, and Kayleigh's. We are far better suited to friends anyhow.

Anyways, I know about Jason's hopes, dreams, fears...etc...and we had similar confusing childhoods, and have both sought therapy to get better and learn how to live out loud. He's not pressuring me in any way-for commitment, for love, for sex-at all. We're just really insanely enjoying each other.

I have never dated someone before who didn't push me into anything. NEVER. And never have i dated someone who is even remotely like me...but Jason and I are really a fair bit alike. BUT, not enough to drive me crazy either.

I know this is insane to say, but I can see us dating a long time. And I don't even remotely get the sense that he's replacing a hole that trevor left behind...because I started to mend that hole well before trevor left me, to be true.

There are some seroiusly tangible and many intangibles that make me KNOW that this man is different from anyone else I've ever dated. And according to the list of necessary things that my mate must have, which I compiled BEFORE I met him....this guy is darn near perfect for me, on a SOUL level, not a shallow, looks/money/prestige level like I chose them before.

I'm really really happy for the first time in a LONG time. And I'm still protecting my heart and praying every day.

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Keep on keepin' on...

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