Oh man, I am so vulnerable right now.
Two things are threatening to bring me back to him.
The first is the gym, I need a spotter for the gym.
Me and him used to go to the gym.
I almost feel like transitiing smoothly from him by still going to the gym.
When I go to the gym alone, I do not have enough strength or confidence, at least on chest and tricep day, to do a good workout.
I need a spotter there who will force me and help lift the bar.
If I don't, I end up doing lighter weight, and the workout is nowhere close to as good.
Now there are two other people I might be able to workout with, however, they both go alone.
They don't go at a time I can count on them being able to spot 100% of the time.
I also think that perhaps this too, self confidence, being afraid to ask for spotters, is part of my problem, and staying friends with this person for that reason only compounds it.
Further, this kid might try to make me jealous.
If he starts being extra friendly to other people for spite, it would really hurt me.
Today, we did talk civilly.
Maybe it's best just to do that.
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