Hi.
THanks for your time, for listening, and responding to me.
I really am in pickle.
Thankfully I have a therapist who is very caring, but still, I have my momenets.
Sometime I feel totally sufficent and happy.
Then tonight, my friends are all out and busy.
I'm here in my apartment, alone.
My roomate is here, ignoring me.
Ever since I told him to pay his share on Tuesday, he has been ignoring me.
When I'm with other friends, I'm happy, I don't nee dhim.
But when I am alone, I feel very anxious, worried about being all alone, by myself, and in the past, this has made me vulnerable to controlling people who offer me a place to stay, but at a high price.
I do not want to be friends with this person.
I do not want to go back to being under his spell, because this has happened before to me, and I have so much anger from it all.
At the same time, I signed a lease.
I probably could get out, but it would be hard.
If it has to get done, it will.
I think what has to be known is, my family.
I am scared to share my social life with my family, for fear of embarassement.
They know I have had relationships like this in the past.
As of now they feel this kid is great, they have no clue about what goes on.
I am scared to say anything, because I know they will be hurt, mad, and it is shameful.
At the same time, they pay for my school, housing, and health.
They care about me, and can help.
All I can is my emotions are up and down, sometimes very anxious.
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