Michele, this is GREAT!!! *hugs* You keep on keeping on and looking for answers...I've no doubt you will eventually find them I'm soooooo proud of you for staying strong and for reaching out ansd posting your thoughts to us...we all LOVE to hear from you and we want to know how you're doing as you are a beloved member of these boards *more hugs*
I'm going to say a prayer for you when I finish this post that G-d should grant you knowledge and faith to continue on your difficult journey throughout all of this madness. You're doing GREAT Michele!!! I love you!