You have to accept the loss of the life you thought might be yours and then once you mourn that, you can move on with the life you have been given.
I know that is how it was described to me as I was first learning to accept Luke's autism/asperger's diagnosis. And frankly I didn't go through that process for real until a good year after the diagnosis.
So... big hugs. You will move on from this point!!! hugs....
-------------------- Take care,
Michelle
...the greatest of these is LOVE. (I Cor 13)