Oh man, I'm afraid you'll get sick of my posts all on this topic! So with apologies to those who don't want to know the inner workings of my panic attacking brain, I'm freaking out AGAIN! Its been so often lately. I got a flu shot today - the 4th year in a row that I've gotten one. Last year I felt nothing, the year before I got a low fever like 99, the year before that nothing. I was feeling fine until about 1/2 hour ago when my stomach started to cramp and I got terrified that I'd throw up. You know, I'm not sure writing this all out helps me though. I start to act out my panic even more as I talk about it. I don't know because sometimes I feel better afterwards. I guess it helps, but I need to find a long term non-drug solution. Maybe I should start smoking pot and mellow out a little! I've done the hypno cds twice already....
SO this time I was lying in bed and got convinced that I'll get sick from the shot or that I'm coming down wiht the thing our babysitter had, which she described to me in graphic detail - I'll spare you!. That's actually what prompted me to go and get the shot, i'd been putting off this year.
Anyway I have to face this, i'm going to be around a lot of stomach upsets now that I have a kid, and I REALLY don't want to pass this attitude down to her. How to change though when a bit of nausea makes me want to run right out of my skin!?? (In fact the first time I had a panic attack - 4 years ago, I literally tried to do that! I just started running with no idea of how that might help - I guess I was trying to outrun the nausea! )
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Ladies & gentlemen take my advice, pull down your pants and slide on the ice.
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