not sure why, just feeling more sad today. I'm having a lot of abdominal pain still but the dr said that was normal but I guess the pain and "empty" feeling inside remind me even more of what happened. I also woke up at about 4am and my eyes were matted shut, ick. Its this stupid recurrent Iritis I have, I guess it goes along with the connective tissue problems I have. Its just one more reminder that my body has a lot of problems. I know that I can't control these problems but its still makes me sad and angry. I saw on the news last night a young girl got hit by a car, she was 12 weeks pregnant, she is in rough shape but the baby is fine. I'm very happy that she and her baby will be ok but if a pregnant women can get hit by a car and still have a healthy baby, why can't I? I know when I get these feelings, I need to remember "acceptance" as I've been trying to call it. Acceptance that this is my body and my life and I have to make the best of what I have and try not to dwell on what I don't or the things I can't change. I know this in my head but sometimes but heart forget or just doesn't want to listen to my head! I know there will be good days and bad and thats normal but I'm just tired of hurting. Both physically and mentally.
On a happier note, I get to go choose my new fur baby tomorrow! I plan on bringing my camera so I can post some pictures next week.
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....
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Todays is a little harder
I know there will be good days and bad and thats normal but I'm just tired of hurting. Both physically and mentally.
