Michele, please do not worry about anyone but YOU right now!!
Go out and buy yourself a lovely outfit or a few right now if it will make you feel better! And it's not a waste of money! I just bought myself flowers that, as hubby would say, will die so why buy? It makes us FEEL GOOD *hugs* And that is priceless!
You are wonderful and we all love you so much. We want you to take care of yourself...it's so important!
As for the Xanax...did the doc prescribe it as needed? I would stay on it for now...the drowsiness from the meds usually go away within a week or 2 and if it isn't inhibiting...use the extra boost.
We don't need you to respond to us right now Michele. We are sending you our love NOT for a response...but to give to you...the woman who is ALWAYS giving to us. Let us give back, ok *super hugs*