Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | We'll I've made it to Saturday

One day at a time right. I slept most of the afternoon yesterday after the funeral. Will made me eat a little something and I went back to bed. I woke up at 5:30 this am crying and having a hard time so I took another Xanax and slept for a couple more hours. Thank goodness for american pharmaceuticals! LOL!

I'm having a lot of abdominal pain and cramping. I literally feel empty inside. I believe the pain I'm having is my uterus shrinking back down. It was actually about the size of a 18 week gestation and without labor, I imagine its going to take some time to reach its normal size.

I'm trying to take comfort in the small things like my kitties playing and being silly. Like my hubby being so wonderful and all the outpouring of love I have received. I'm still hurting and I'm sure that once I ease up on the tranquillizer that I'm going to have some pretty bad days but for now, even the dr's agree it best to take them. I have an appt with my shrink Tuesday night after work and I imagine I'll start seeing her a little more frequently for a while.

I still haven't felt up to going anywhere or doing anything, other then the funeral. My pj's have been my attire for days now and I think I forget where my hairbrush is but I think thats all ok too for now. I do have to manage to get myself to work Monday. We won't have patients until Tuesday and I'll be alone in the office Monday but I'll have my computer so I can talk to you all.

I'm trying very hard to find my way back to some sense of normalcy but at least I have another day or so before having to venture out in the real world. I don't know whats going to happen from here. I will talk with the dr's some more but it very well might be time to consider what kind of fund raisers I can do to raise money for adoption. Its just too much for me to figure out right now.

Ok, so thats where I'm at right now. I will try to catch up with everyone else's post next week but for now I just want to say again how much I appreciate everyone. I've have received more phone calls, posts and emails that I had imagined possible. It truly has kept me going and brought me much hope and light during this dark time.

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Taking it one day at a time.....

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