I don't think I can say anything that hasn't been said here already. We are all just so sad for you. Everyone here knows how much you love those babies.
Vent, vent, vent away. We are all here to listen. Also, don't be afraid to ask us and people around you for help. You need it right now! Lean on your friend, too, and let her lean back.
I'm sending you lots and lots of hugs,love, and prayers.
-------------------- Christine
Those who can do; those who want it done better teach.