BL I'm sorry your having such a terible time right now. You need to find something to keep you busy, to give you something to look forward to. Can you take a class? I thought you recently said you were tying to get into scrapbooking, call some of the local scrapbook stores and find out when they have classes. How about joining the Y and get into a yoga or swim class? My Y has classes just for people with arthritis and stuff and with your back problems, that might be just what you need?! How about looking in the paper to see who needs a part time babysitter? Can you volunteer some time at your church?
I'm sorry your friends are all so busy, especially when you need them most. I wish I could help more. Email me if you want to talk, I'm here all day. Love and hugs.
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