First of all, I would check out flylady.net She is REALLY helping me through my bipolar downs right now
Second, I am e-mailing you my phone number and you can call me whenever you get scared (I have been violated so I can offer some support in that area). Hubby is leaving on b-day this year VOLUNTARILY to go on a road trip (he didn't come to NY with me when I changed my name, long story--and now he's leaving on my b-day...)....so we can cry together, ok?
So I am TOTALY here for you *hugs* and we ALLLLLLL love you!
As far as Grandma...do you have siblings that can help out (I'm guessing no...but I thought I'd ask anyway). Does she have friends...anyone?
You POOR thing! ! !
Def. check out flylady (FLY stands for Finally Loving Yourself). and for now...I am making you a BIG pot of fennel tea, lighting you candles, just put your feet up on this chair...that's it! and we are going on a mini vaca, you and me, to a SPA! ! ! !