Michele, I really feel for you with all of this. I can imagine that your entire life has become consumed by the goal of pregnancy. I know you've said this yourself before, but maybe you should just take some time and focus on your marriage, before revisiting the issue of children and how to achieve that goal, whether it's biologically or through adoption or however is best for your husband and you. After all, a good marriage is the starter for a good family, right? I don't think you can have one without the other. So it's not giving up to take a break from the shots and make being a wife a priority. You're not turning your back on any future children, or making yourself any less worthy. it's a hard road you've traveled and you need to recuperate.