You don't have to give up. If you can't take the hormones anymore then you need to give yourself a break from that. It must be very hard on you to pump those drugs into your system every day. I know about the roller coaster because I was on it for almost 7 years and at some point I had to get off and take care of me. I decided to look into adoption and I did become pregnant about 2 months after I strated to explore adoption. Just to let you know, it is possible. I had 3 miscarriages. I have lupus which makes the probability of miscarriage much higher, but I had a daughter with absolutely no drugs involved. One important thing you know is that you can get pregnant. Hang on to that. I don't know what else to say but I'm so sorry that you are so down. Believe me I have been there too. When you do have this baby, you will appreciate the experience deeply. I just know you will be successful, Michele, so don't give up.