Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | I AM SO TIRED OF MY STOMACH!! (First day = Not good)

Hey guys,

I need to vent. Nobody else understands. It is everything I can do not to just sob my eyes out right now. I am so upset and frustrated and tired, and I feel so jealous of all these people with none of these problems!

I am on my couch, having taken some bucospan (which always knocks me right out, so I NEVER take it... that is how much pain I am in) with a heating pad and peppermint tea, just clenched up so tight because I am in so much pain.

My first day at my new job was really upsetting. The JOB seems great, but I don't even think I'll be able to do it. I was in pain, nauseous, had D, urgency, such bad cramps.. I got harsh anxiety, felt myself sweating and then shaking.. I almost started crying in the board room when I got so frustrated. I thought I was going to have to get up and say, "I'm sorry, I thought I could do this, but I can't" and quit a perfectly good job. I didn't, but who knows how I will make it through the next 6 weeks of training?

The pain is so bad, I don't know what to do.. If it gets any worse, I will go to the ER to get something because I can barely stand this.
I just feel so angry and upset, why can't I get this under control??
I'm sorry to go back to complaining again, I just know that no one else will understand and I feel like screaming.
I cannot miss ONE day in the next six weeks if I want to keep this job, so I am just freaking out.

--Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
IBS-D,pain.

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