I didn't read all the lists of replies, so if this was suggested, sorry you have to read it twice
I would interview them all! Yep! This is what I did...I called each therapist on my insurance and left a message. Some were willing to speak 5 mins over the phone and have an interview appointment. If they wouldn't chat a bit on the phone, I crossed them off immediately. If I liked them on the phone, I set up an appointment. This way I could pick and choose who I liked.
Anyhow...I love you Beth *hugs* And I understand the whole dark whole thing all to well. Maybe you could try ativan for the anixiety or xanax?
We love you and are here no matter what *big huge hugs and lots of love*