You know it's time to check yourself in, when you can no longer trust yourself to control the actions of your hands...when the mind's instructions to do harm to the physical are too intense or too overwhelming.
Do you need a "vacation" where you can just surrender responsiblity and be taken care of while the meds. take impact. Are you going to kill yourself, or harm yourself/someone else?
I know this is neither your desire, nor your intent.
How high/low are you swinging?
I question re: the quality of your help. I question whether or not you are getting enough attention. Do you need a "babysitter"/monitor for awhile to FEEL SAFE?
How safe do you feel with just yourself around?
IT TAKES TIME. Honestly...when I say it takes time, I mean a good 4-6 weeks.
We all love you and only want the best for you.
Try not to expect too much of yourself, now. Can you just creatively wait it out? Distract yourself with activities?
Keep communicating, dear Ruchie. Don't be afraid to take "a little mental health vacation" (i.e. check in somewhere for a little while). Your poor body/psyche are so monolithically overwhelmed and your world view is inside out and upside down.
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