She expalined to me it is CREEPY and SNEAKY for someone to with hold your maintenance person's # from you. She suggests I get it from someone else in the complex.
She explained that my husband (who is usually SO supportive!) probably has some issues of his own, don't we all, and that he might be passive--which he is!
It was good for me to have to deal with this myself.
I called this guy. It was well rehearsed what I would say. If he was asking about the girl (hubby's assumption!) I would tell him there is no relationship to speak of and there won't be one.
BUT he wanted to know about ME! I was right and so were my instincts! When he picked up I stated who I was. He asked how I was, long time no talk, and I said "Did you want to speak to me about Elizabeth?" :He said no "No, I want to know how you're doing..." I said "Thank you for the concern, but I am on my way into the store, so I need to go now". He sounded upset. But what can I do? IT'S NOT OK! I felt soooo uncomfortable, my suspicions were right on!!!
All my life I've looked out for everyone else. Always "getting out of other's way". For example, at the HFS today, I kept pushing my cart over for everyone even though IT WASN'T in the way! I'm sooo paranoid of hurting others...BUT
I never worry about hurting myself.
My therapist is teaching me well! I don't have to be nice to everyone. If someone goes out of bounds..I can make my needs clear...and that is OK.
It's going to take a LONG time to learn these lessons...but I'm working on it!
I cannot thank everyone here fro supporting me enough....
I love you--thanks for being here !!!
Ruch
P.S. I still feel like a mess. Like my husband can do better. I wish I could be social. I feel guilty for soo very many things! I pray that these meds help and SOON...I am def. not in a good place. BUT having my IBS family makes things seem less hopeless...I love you *hugs*
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