I'm sorry, I've been very busy at work today and just saw this. I'm so sorry you are feeling bad. Don't ever think you're a bad mother though, I only wish I had a mother as great as you!!
I hope the dr's appt next week goes well and they find a better combination of medications to help you. Is there any way they can see you any earlier?
Hang in there, lots of love and big hugs!
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....