I've fallen into another depression. I don't quite know how it happened. I didn't recognize the warning signs. This new med change isn't working. I have a Doctor's appointment next Wednesday and I'm going to ask to switch meds and go on a stronger dose. The OCD is getting worse, too. I'm shaking, having panic attacks, I can't eat, I'm super nauseous ALL the time to the point that if I don't have a piece of gum in my mouth I'm gagging, my IBS is back, the list goes on. I feel like I'm falling apart. I called practically everyone I know and they're all busy or not answering their phone, so I can't get anyone to come over right now. I called my husband and he's 2 hours away and I feel like I'm about to have a meltdown. Hubby is on his way home, though. I feel like a failure. I feel like a horrible mother. I fell asleep last night during the dinner hour and didn't even feed my poor children supper until late! I feel so awful about it. What kind of mother falls asleep on her children? What if something had happened to them while I was asleep? To top it all off, I'm starting to have suicidal thoughts (don't worry, I PROMISE I won't do anything). I feel so horrible. Hugs, please.
-------------------- Formerly HanSolo. IBS, OCD, Bipolar, PTSD times 3.
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