Hi Ruchie, I am so glad that you found a new therapist. You haven't been taking up board space. We love to hear from you. When you are feeling all alone you need to post your feelings so we can help you. We are here for you. I think you are a wonderful person. We do not think you are a failure. You have been abused and we don't want you to suffer anymore. Please tell your therapist how you feel about everything. We will be praying for you and we will give you all the moral support you need. We are your friends and let us help you through your bad times. Shelby