Ah, Ruchie! I am so proud of you! This is a big step for you. It is not a weakness to seek professional help. What is a shame is people who won't admit they need help. You are going to be so much stronger and healthier because of this. This is the first step and a big one for you.
The greatest thing I ever did was get myself to a psychiatrist---and to put my faith in him. He was the greatest, sweetest, most compassionate person---and I owe my life to him! I never would've made it without him.
You are such a ray of sunshine to all of us. I think I speak for others when I say we love to hear from you. You are not "taking up space" on the boards. You are our friend, and we love you and are concerned about you. That's what friends are for!