I am so sad for you. I remember when my dog was put down. It just about killed me. I cried for days. I still dream about her 15 years later. I still keep a picture of her on my fridge. She was just the most loving, compassionate best friend I ever had. I too grew up with her.
I am definitely one of those people who believes losing a pet is just as bad as losing a human you love and cherish. This must be so hard for you.
My mom had to put down my dog when I was away too. So, I never got to say good bye or give her my last kiss and cuddle. If you bury her, you could go visit her and say goodbye that way. Not the same, I know.... I can't make this better...Just let you know how sorry I am that you had this happen right now.
Thinking of you, and sending you a big hug. I hope you are okay and able to find some comfort in your sadness.
Lots of love!
-------------------- ~ Beth
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