Please feel better soon! I am here for you too. You are a strong, loving person and are definately a survivor, and you will get through this! EDs can be tough, alot of us on here know that. I feel like EDs and obsessing about food and weight will be a part of my life forever, but we can, and WILL overcome it!
Please hang in there sweetie, you have helped so many people through these boards, hopefully we will all be able to help you now