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Hi again guys,

I am so sorry to keep complaining, but I just feel like I am being dragged down and like I can't do anything right.

So if you read my last post you know I was all upset about Adrian, and I feel on loose footing about that still.. He tells me everything is okay, that he loves me, but I make him so upset and I can't help feeling awful about it.

That lead to me being really distracted for my exam, which I felt went really badly.

Then I found out that there is pretty much no way I can get into the program I have been planning the next 2 years of my life around because I didn't do well enough in Math. Everyone kept telling me there would be a way around it, and I started to believe them, until I finally talked to someone today who basically told me it was a no-go. They said that I won't pass the equivalency test if I didn't breeze through Math in grade 11 (and I hardly breezed.. more like stumbled) so I would have to take a whole course upgrade (which I can't get funding for, so I can't even afford) and it will finish on the 2nd of June... Which means I have to put off another 8 weeks from working full time, will have to miss the first two days anyway because it starts next week, right in the middle of my other final exams and then it will be too late to enroll in the program, even if I do pass!!

So maybe I'll just carry on studying History?
Oh, until I got my paper back today in my History class and did abissmally on it. So bad that I went up to my teacher, my legs and arms shaking 'cause I hate having to be confrontational.... or whatever.... and told her that I definitely thought I deserve a better grade. She gave me some really confusing feedback that didn't make any sense and I left really upset. She said, "Would you feel better if I gave you a higher grade?" and I said I thought I deserved it, so she gave me ONE extra mark.

So now I won't get into a History program at a University, or my other course so I am so totally lost.

I have been exercising, can't lose any weight. I have been studying, but am doing poorly. I have been applying, but not getting any jobs. I lost my best friend when she totally turned her back on me, my boyfriend is unhappy and I just feel like I don't know what to do.

I just need a hug or some support or something, I just feel like giving up on everything since I feel like I can't do anything right.

Blah, sorry for being such a downer lately.

Thanks everybody, I count on you guys so much!!
--Steph

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