I had a difficult life and went from one bad situation to another, especially when it came to men. I ALWAYS had to have a boyfriend, even if he was a bad one, I think because I was always afraid of being alone. When I was in my mid-20's, things got super bad. I was living with a physically and mentally abusive man, addicted to drugs and often had thoughts of sucicide because I just didn't see any way out.
Well, one day after a long drug binge, I looked in the mirror and saw a very pathetic girl with an extremely swellon black eye. That was it. I filed for a restraining order (which didn't do any good) but eventually got out of the abusive situation and cleaned myself up. For many months, I didn't do much except go to work. I rented a LOT of movies, had the cleanest house in the world and just got to know MYSELF. It was very hard at first. I was afraid to be home alone, literally afraid of the dark. That took some time, even today I sleep with a night light . Anyway, I came to the realization that until I LOVED myself, no one else was going to love me. I realized that just because I was alone, didn't mean I had to be lonely.
Eventually, I started to branch out, dated a bit and one day decided to move 2 hours away and make a complete fresh start. A month after I moved, I met Will, we were married a year later! That was 5 years ago!
Anyway, my point is, take some time for you. Get to know you. Figure out what is REALLY important to you. What is really important in a mate. Find happiness in yourself and everything else will fall into place!
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....
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and just got to know MYSELF. It was very hard at first. I was afraid to be home alone, literally afraid of the dark. That took some time, even today I sleep with a night light 
. Anyway, I came to the realization that until I LOVED myself, no one else was going to love me. I realized that just because I was alone, didn't mean I had to be lonely. 
