Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards

Sorry my new buddy is hurting so much. Like I said in my post to Casey, it is so hard when someone we care about is hurting and we can't be there to hold their hand and comfort them. Internet Hugs are great, but wish I could give you a real one! One big, tight, long one, and not let you go!

Please try not to beat yourself up over two stupid chocolate bars. Those chocolate bars are nothing. It's over and they don't make you any less of a person because you needed to turn to something that you have used as a coping mechanism in the past. Yes it works short term, but I know the feelings of guilt and shame afterwards are horrible. I had struggled with anorexia for over 15 years. I used it as my coping mechanism. It numbed me from the real pain of emptyness, hating myself, needing to be perfect in at least one area of my life, wanting to please other people, not having a clue who Beth was/is. This is a tough one to beat, but you can beat it Ruchie. Some days are just more challenging and we have setbacks. But that does not erase the 8 days you went without sugar!!!! Nothing can erase that.

You have to start over fresh again tomorrow. You are not perfect, and your recovery from all the "crap" in your life won't be perfect. But you are moving forward.

I struggle big time with hating myself, trying to get everyone else to like me or I am worthless. Trying to be okay with me instead of needing confirmation by things I do or performing in my job, or buying the perfect gift.

We share so many common feelings and actions and coping mechanisms. It's rough. All the people on the board can tell you how special you are, how loved you are, but for you and me, it is difficult to believe it because we have such low self esteems.

It is hard to love ourselves or even to know who we are! I have no clue who Beth really is or how to live in Today. But we just have to get up tomorrow and start all over again. And keep fighting our demons. Please remind me of this when I get down! It is so much easier to see the good in you. Don't you wish we could see it in ourselves?

Take care, dear Ruchie. And know that you are not alone. You are loved. You are respected. You are our Ruchie, scars and all. We love every part of you. We are all bruised and damaged in different ways, and some more than others. I cannot know what you went through sweetie, but it must have been awful to bring you to this horrible place. I am sorry for all you went through, and for the struggles you continue to have. But you are so young and you have so much life ahead of you. It will be a good life. It doesn't always have to be so painful for you. Try and hold on to that belief.

Please take care and keep in touch.
Love you!

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~ Beth
Constipation, pain prodominent,cramps, spasms and bloat!

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