I just need a place to rant a little I guess. My son (18 months) has not been sleeping well lately (he's taking Ventolin for his asthma) and as a result I'm not sleeping so have had more attacks than usual lately. I'm D and sometimes pretty severe. I'm afraid to leave my house even to go into the backyard some days. I haven't taken my kids for a walk in three weeks when I had a bad attack while walking to the 7-11. Thank God they had a bathroom even though I almost didn't make it. I ended up stopping at my brother's house and waiting till my husband could walk home and get the car and come and get me. Just before that I had had 2 weeks with no symptoms. Now it seems like every other day is questionable.
I'm afraid to go out so I'm not getting my walks in although I am doing yoga every night (well some I just can't manage it due to being out or whatever). I'm using Imodium when it's really bad and I have to leave the house for whatever reason. I'm a mom so I don't have to go out to work and am eternally grateful for that. Sorry to ramble but there is no one I can really talk to here. My husband is VERY understanding but he doesn't have it so can't really understand. I'm feeling kind of lonely I guess. I have a friend with IBS but we haven't really sat down to talk about it as usually our kids and husbands and others are around and it's not exactly something that is usually discussed in regular (HA HA) conversation.
I am also getting depressed at the thought of my period showing up this week. Our church group is planning a three hour drive to the lake and spend the day there. My husband can't come as he has to work and I'll be driving with some friends and their kids. Then church on Sunday and I am helping with worship.
Sorry this is so long. I'm feeling really sorry for myself at the moment and afraid. I'm going to make a more concerted effort to get my walks in or start an aerobics video but it's hard with kids and I don't want to lose too much time with my husband in the evenings. Any advice from anyone would be helpful. Thanks.
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