Hey jamie,
I know I sounded alittle harsh with my 'dork' comment, but I should explain that it is not really an insult between us. I know that it is weird, but dork is not an insult, especially between us, and our group of friends. We both wear glasses and like dorky things, alot of times we use it affectionately. SO, I was using it in place of mean words, to show that he wasn't being too much fun but I was.
If he said that he made a mistake or forgot or something it would be one thing, but he defended that it was ok what he did, that he did it on purpose. i wa sreally heated and said mean things about the particular friend, and I admit I was trying to provoke him, and it worked. Then, he turned around and said it was ok what I said, because she probably was being rude! Apparently, this girl is always telling him he should wind up with his ex (his high school sweetheart, used to be her best friend) and get married to her. So, she is not fond of him being with me, even though she doesn't know me. I am really good to him, but that particular ex girlfriend cheated on him constantly, even with HIS best friend. I know that it isn't his fault, but that makes me REALLY angry, because I went through this with an ex before, alot of his friends (and even his mother) wanted him to be with his ex, because she was more 'demure' and petite (even though I kinda think her face looks like one of those troll dolls ). I ran into people that I barely knew from high school at the same party, and they were decent enough to force an introduction out of me (of course I didn't offer one after what happened earlier). The problem is also not that he is below my level, but since we have been together I have grown up alot, and he has stayed in the same place. So, it is like we are not good together. He even realizes this and admits it, too. It is a shame because we have been good together and can be, but he needs to grow up alot, and he now knows this and even doubts that he will fast enough for us to get along together again. It is like he knows everything that he is doing wrong and either can't or chooses not to do something about them. I guess that is part of being young and in relationships, they don;t last forever. makes it harder when you realize this, but the person didn't do something all that bad to you. It is always easier to break up when you are really mad or wronged. Oh, and we talked 'til 1:30 in the morning, we are givinng it one more go, then if things aren't working we aren't going to torture each other anymore. I really do hope things work out, but I think things are in bad enough shape that they might not, this has been in the works for over a year now, and it seems like there is an issue for us to deal with from every night last week! Argh!I will get through this
-------------------- -Sheri
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