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Thank you so much. You don't know how badly I needed to hear that tonight. It's been a long weekend. After just giving notice on Thursday, I have had the entire weekend to ruminate on what I have done. It's always hard when you have to think about it for a while, but it's done now, so you've got to train your mind to just look forward. Look to the future, don't regret things that may not be mistakes.

In the past, my decisions have always seemed to backfire on me. I guess that makes me very leery in future decisions. Especially ones that may cost me a lot. I will try to remember what you said. If this one doesn't work out, or if I find I can't handle a FT job yet, I can always look for another PT job. I tend to have narrow vision and often cannot see outside my tunnel vision. To see the other options out there.(You read the entire thread and still think I made the right decision)? I do think you made the right decision. And there are a lot of things that you can do right now (rather than worrying) to save yourself from future trouble, or at least lessen the shock. For example, talk to whoever it is that deals with your disablilty. Tell them honestly that you want to try a full time job, but are as yet unsure whether you can handle it. Ask them what you can do if it doesn't work out, so you don't lose your benefits. Then pull out your newspaper and get on the net and look for jobs. You don't have to wait until this job goes bad (which I don't think it will, but we're planning for the worst) to start looking. Talk to friends and people in your field to market yourself. Then in the future you will have those contacts should you need them. Head to some job fairs as well; some places will take your resume and leave it on file for quite a while. If they call and you feel like getting out of this f/t job, you've got another door open. If you're doing fine at this job, then you can politely decline. By getting proactive and making plans for the possibilities, you can really get rid of a lot of the stress.

Thank you so much Amber for your support and for your insightful views. It is such a very comforting feeling to try and remember that I have you guys in my corner. And if I need to come to you guys if I get into trouble with this job, I can count on you guys to help me figure out what I can do to get out of the situation or even to stay in it but with a new approach or coping tool. That's absolutely right. We're all here for you, and we're all rooting for you, no matter what happens.

You are a pretty smart chick for being so young!!! Thank you!

And I'm wondering why my IBS pain is in overdrive tonight. Well, duh! I am so anxious and stressed and have gotten myself all worked up as usual. I think stress flares up the IBS more than the foods in my case. Well, now's the perfect time to take care of yourself!! Go take a hot bath and drink some tea and give yourself a manicure. Relax - no matter what happens, you will be fine! Every day brings new opportunities, and you just reached out and snagged one! Give yourself a pat on the back for it!!

Thanks again sweetie. My pleasure! Take care hon!

Ps. Have you started trying an SFS yet? Nope, still don't have the money for it. I really don't know when I will either ... it's going to be on the back burner for a while, I'm afraid.

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