Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Update: Really hurt feelings by boyfriend

So I went out to my office Christmas party last night, and had an alright time. Took some immodium and motilium to ward off any attacks or nausea and off I went.
Adrian (bf) went out with his friends to the pub, and when I got home they were sitting in our front room eating pizza. So I sat with them for a bit, and then realised that they had been talking about all kinds of stupid guy things all night.. including me.
Apparently, Adrian has told his friends how I'm fat now and his friend was arguing that I am not as fat as is girlfriend. They were actually arguing about it! Then Adrian went on to say how much lazier women are than men, and how lazy I am. Apparently, he is shocked that I'm not more fat than I am considering how lazy I am.
So I am sitting there, while they are laughing on recounts of these conversations they've had, not even knowing how to react. In the beginning, I was laughing 'cause I can take a joke and stuff but then it just got really offensive and I didn't even know what to say.
Then I guess they realised that I wasn't really happy and started taking it all back, saying they'd never said any of it.. but they were really drunk and stupid and I am actually NOT stupid.
So then they tried to make it better by telling me that Adrian had actually also paid me compliments. Now, I'm not gonna say here exactly what that compliment was but it was sexual and it was not what I would call a compliment. I was so embarassed and hurt that I just sat there for a minute before they all left.
Then I told Adrian how much he had hurt my feelings, and he just kept saying he hadn't said any of it.. when he had admitted he had! So I called him a liar, and he copped up to saying some of it and then just said he hadn't meant to upset me!
Okay, sometimes I am kinda lazy.. but a lot of the time I am really ill. And lots of the time, I would LOVE to be able to hop up and go to the gym but I am too busy feeling nauseous and dizzy, or stuck on the loo.. or feeling like I am about to have to run to the loo. And the thing is, I do go to the gym. When I am feeling good, I try and go like twice a week.. sometimes I don't make it for a month, sometimes I go every few weeks but I do try and go as often as I can. It's not the same as it is with Adrian, he can go to the gym at work on his lunch breaks - I have to pay the equivalent of $12.50 CDN every time I want to go, and it is really far from where I was working.
But even if I didn't ever go the gym, he still shouldn't be saying things like that about me!! I tried to explain when we were all sitting there that it's not right to tell your girlfriend she's fat, and they said it was about being honest.. I said it wasn't honest, it was cruel and they just laughed and disagreed. In this "honesty" he also admitted that he wouldn't love me anymore if I got really fat - and I said that was disgusting, that you'd just stop loving someone??? Then he mentioned this girl he broke up with a few years ago, just because she'd put on weight.
I haven't spoken to Adrian since we argued before we went to bed, after I told him that if that is how he sees me, I don't want to be with him. He's called me twice today, but I haven't answered.
I feel really let down.. and really angry for him doing to this to me when I am already feeling so fragile. Normally, Adrian is really great.. but this is just really low I think.
I am going to go start packing and try to take my mind off of it.
Thanks for the ears.. or eyes, as it is..
Luv Steph

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