Reged: 07/10/04
Posts: 1176
Loc: Manhattan, New York
Please please please don't feel bad about letting this all out on us...that is what we are here for and you MUST let it out and vent...its the healthiest way. I want to give you a big fat hug! :-) I SO understand what you are saying...about the going to sleep and not waking up again, at least until you have the right to live your life and plan your day like a normal person. I was crying this weekend because I got a nausea attack when I was in an antiques store with hubby and his parents...I explained that it wasn't even the physical symptoms that were making me cry..it was more their unpredictability..it someone could just tell me what to do to get better, I would follow it to a T, if someone could tell me 'ok for these hours of the day you are going to feel like crap' I would deal with it and plan my day around it...but the fact that it can strike anytime and ruin anything you plan (my wedding included to an extent :-() makes it so frustrating. I have recently come to a conclusion that I want to see a therapist to talk to about mind body connections...I feel my fear of my IBS and want help gaining control of the fear. I am by no means suggesting that this is in your head or you are creating the illness you are feeling, but talking to someone professional may really help...I haven't gone yet but will certainly keep you up to date. I really believe that SOME of how you are feeling has to do with your living arrangements....when you leave england to go home it will be the end of a chapter...(I sooo understand this...remember I have moved around constantly for the last two years and am now settling down)...I am so sure you are going to get somewhat better... Please take care of yourself. Please eat a very safe diet for now..please give yourself the best and understand that what you feel is natural and there is nothing like a good cry. Much love and healthy wishes....
-------------------- Feel the fear and do it anyway!
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